God is good

I am greatful to announce that my Aunt is no longer in ICU, but she is still in the hospital in the halo-brace, and her jaw is wired shut... will be for a total of three months. The doctors have said that she will take 6-9 months to recover from her injuries. I am praying that at some point soon she will be moved into a soft brace and then able to go home and continue her recovery there, where she can be more comfortable. Right now I think her comfort is the main issue. She is restless and is kicking her feet and moving her hands around a lot. This causes tubes and such to come detattched from her and they sometimes have to tie her hands down. I really feel for her, I can't imaging being stuck in the same position for a month already, and looking down the road at another 5 to 8 like that. She also must be very fustrated by the limited communication, due to her hands being bandaged and her jaw being wired shut. I think of holidays that have come and gone and that will continue to come and go while she is her condition. I really hate not having her around with us to celebrate and I am sure it makes her sad as well.


My sister-in-law had yet another failed IUI treatment, to get pregnant. This is a bitter pill to swallow. I have been praying that she gets pregnant and every time it fails it makes me ask, "Why God?" But as I read scripture it assures me that God will answer the prayers of his faithful children, but only if its in line with His perfect will. So the only answer I can see He is giving us at this time is that its not His will that she gets pregnant right now, or not with IUI. She may be given a child eventually naturally, but only time will show us. Or she may decide to adopt, and perhaps that is truly what His will is. I know that God will provide for her a child, either naturally or through adoption. She desires a child so badly, as well as her husband. I don't think that God's will is to deprive them of that joy. The only questions are when and how? It's difficult to watch her go through these attempts with no success, but I have faith that God has His reasons. So far this has brought her closer to God and to her husband, and that may be one reason for the delay. God may be strengthening her faith and drawing her nearer to Him through this trial. Not a way one would hope to be drawn to God, but I cannot question His methods, He knows more than me.

Now I am looking to possibly try myself for my second child. This is hard for my husband and I to decide on when... we were hoping his sister would have been pregnant already and have her first before we had our second. And we are unsure of what is going on with his job. We are not sure if its that secure right now, and it is difficult to plan to have a second child in the face of possible job loss or necessary job changes due to a multitude of problems with his current company. But in my mind I keep thinking that we need to do what is best for us as a family unit. We want our kids to be fairly close in age, and the closer they are in age the sooner I can go back to work when they are both in school. So in some ways, waiting is not better. If the kids are close they will be better play mates and we will be young enough to keep up with the next one if we don't wait too long. Plus, if I wait too long then my next pregnancy would be considered "high risk" due to my age. So... with all that in my thoughts I think that the Lord will provide for us as He has been doing throughout our marriage. For example: When I was in the delivery room, in midst of a contraction, my husband got a phone call from his current empolyer to set up an interview. And after he accepted his new job I was able to quit my old one and stay home full time to raise our baby. Then a year and a half later his old job's boss is under investigation and his business is really going down hill. God knows all the variables in life, they are too many for me to keep track of. I am thankful that it's not my job to keep in all in line and control my own life. It's far easier for me to let go, put in in God's hands, and trust that He will provide for me what I need. Sometimes He even gives me more than I need and I get things I just want. And that is a blessing above the regular blessings. I know He only promises to give me my daily bread, but when I get steak... it truly amazes me!

I hope and pray that you are blessed by God in your life. Trials come and go, but God uses them to draw us closer to Him. Do not miss the message He is sending you by putting you through the fire. And if you are reaping the blessings of a wonderful life please continue to be greatful and trusing and leaning on God. You never know when the tide will change, but one thing is for sure... God is always the same. Amen!